New Friends, New Life, New Language

I smoke...
I laugh...
I lost...

I chat...
I'm not alone.... surrounded by people...
New friends, new life and new ME
Another personality I created just to fill in right
Still... sometimes I feel lost and lonely
No one there can understand, not even me
Again...

I was laugh...
I wasn't alone...
I was smoke...
I was smile...
I was... what?
I am what I am...
I love what I do...
I do love what I do now...
I do have fun with these people
Still, something inside me is missing and no one can fill it in
No one can re-construct again my fragile heart
Not in the sunshine
Not in the rain
Not in everywhere...
Nothing...
I was there.... with the pain in my chest
Take me down to the zero level
And again...

New friends, new smile, new life
I smoke...
I lied...
and yet I tell them the truth...
It wasn't nice
But, to be ME...
That's the only way...
This letter was write down
Not from the bottom of my heart...
From the surface or my HEAD
With them I have so much fun
Different words, different world, different style
I can smoke
I can smile and smoke again
Nobody say NO...
What a day...
So... once again...

NEW FRIENDS, NEW LIFE, NEW LANGUAGE, NEW ME

Oh... man... lost it! Throw this post... this was suck!
Do not listen... I'm hungry and fuckin' tired when I write down this letter...
Damn! I've got to back to work tomorrow...
such a pain in the ass [for the truth...]